Lovin is Hard

So, I'm chillin at the house all day long watching episode after episode of "The Game". It's hypnotic. I truly did not mean to waste my entire free day plopped down in the lazy boy 4 hours a day. If I can remember when I started watching the 1st show. And there were no commercials from one show to the next so there was no time to get distracted and move on to something else. I was hooked literally all day long from A.M. to 6pm when 106 & park came on. Then of course it was easy to let go. I was so into it because I have not seen the game in years so I am so lost on all the episodes. The last show I saw was when Kelly moved out and divorced Jason. I have no idea how that all ended or what day the regular shows come on.
I'm hoping BET doesn't mess up the chemistry.
So, the reason why I'm blogging is because one of the episodes was about Tasha and her breaking up with Coach Kenny. It was all about her attitude and "black girl sass". She mentioned that 47% of African American women do not get married after 30. That was a sad statistic and I'm not really feeling that it has anything to do with "black girl sass". However it has me thinking more about the idea of getting married.

For the longest I haven't really felt the urge to get married or even have a boyfriend. Nothing more than a "hang out" guy with perks. I did say perks not benefits. I think I've had enough of the sex routine. I can have sex any given day of the week. That's a lost cause for me. Not a really big "need" per se. I don't know if I'm really ready for a full blooded relationship. Every relationship I'm in I seem to loose myself and stop focusing on what it is I need to do. No on can get ahead at that rate. I'll always be needy and whiny because I think I'm not getting enough attention. The problem is I should give myself that attention and stop relying on someone else to fill that void. So what I've never been close with my parents or siblings. That shouldn't be the end of to the possibilities of me having a decent worthwhile healthy relationship with someone of the opposite sex.

Love is hard and I seem to keep fighting it and running away from the possibility of meeting Mr. Right. I'm so sure I can stop all hurt from coming my way if I put brick wall between me and the rest of the universe. So what if that only pushes people away. At least then I want be hurt and everyone will be a okay.

Hmmm, that sounds like a pretty lonely place to be for the rest of my life. Yeah, but I'm semi-cool for right now. I'm not really feeling a relationship. It's always the wrong guys that approach me instead of someone I was really interested in and desired. How do I attract and keep those guys? That's where the dilemma lies.

So what would I be interested in? Let's imagine my dream guy. At least 5'7", of course cute. No lighter than me, college graduate at the least, out going. I have to have outgoing because I'm not so he has to be the life of the party. Humor is a must. Loving, gentle, kind, considerate. All the things listed in the bible that describes what true love is and is not. Confident but not cocky, nice dresser but not obsessed, giving, nurturing but not a push over. I don't want him being a yes man and volunteering for everything and everybody. I need him to myself 95% of the time :-) Smart, peaceful, romantic. Yes, romantic. I have never listed that before in my things I want in a mind. After dating my ex and a few other guys in the past, I have come to realize that's what was missing, among other things but especially the romance.

Maybe I haven't been the romancing type. Guys romance the ones that really want to spend time with and care about. humph.

There are tons of other things I could ask for and desire but this blog is pretty long enough so I guess I'll end it there. It was kinda nice and warm to think about what I want in a guy. Maybe I'll dream about it tonight and it will come true.

ITS GRAMMY TIME!

So I just heard on CNN that they are calling it the Year of Hip Hop! Hmm isnt that funny. Years ago musicologist said hip was a fad and would not last. HA!

So, who do we have up this year? And I'm only listing the black ppl and a few others I actually listen to for obvious reasons. lol!

ALBUM OF THE YEAR
album awards a particular song
M.I.A paper planes.... seriously???? how in the world and y?? this song was addictive and catchy for a moment but I dont think it wards an entire years worth of props. No way!
Adele chasing pavements and Leona Lewis bleeding love.... I dont really listen to them or the rest of the people on the list I've never heard of except Cold Play viva la vida. So looks like I'm going with Cold Play on this one. They are way popular and have more than paid their dues. I dont purchase or listen to their music but the want what they want.

RECORD OF THE YEAR
record awards the entire cd
Lil' Wayne....now that is obviously a given. check my Carter III review. I'm not really even into wayne but he's been hot since birth I think. Every year he gets bigger and bigger. He and Kanye are on everybodys ish. Ne-Yo...I didn't purchase this cd because I didnt care for the last one and never listened to it after I purchased so I figured this would be much of the same. He has had lots of air play from this cd so...even though I like wayne's cd, I'm pulling for Ne-Yo on this one. Cold Play is also listed but I've made my pick.

SONG OF THE YEAR
All I know on this list is American Boy...love that song. hands down. This song has to win no doubt.

New Artist
My girl Jazmin Sullivan is on this list but so are the Jonas Brothers, Duffy, and Adele. I would love to say go Jaz but i'm thinking it's going to be the Jonas Brothers. After all Sasha and Malia love them :-)

where's everybody at in Nashville Saturday Feb 7, 2009

Steve Harvey Comedy Show



Saturday, Feb 7 8:00p
at Sommet Center / Nashville Arena, Nashville, TN

Tickets are $37 and $47. In spite of rumors that tickets are sold out. I browsed ticketmaster and they still have tickets. You still have time to get the hair did, nails done, clothes ready and car washed. Grab your crew or fly solo. Get your laugh on this weekend. Count it as an early valentine's gift, preparation for valentine's, tester for valentine lol! Just get out the house on this beautiful February weekend. Enjoy the almost 70 degree Nashville weather.

At time of post: 63°F Mostly Cloudy Wind: N at 4 mph Humidity: 53%
Sat 67°F 47°F

Official Steve Harvey Comedy Show After Party
@ Limelight :: 201 Woodland :: Nashville, TN 37213

TIME: DUH After the Comedy Show lol! 10ish

So they say fine ass Nephew Tommy will be hosting this party. Hmmm I'm thinking he may be there but you know how celebs do, they come like 30 minutes before the club closes. In Nashville that is 2am! Or 10 minutes til. Even so, I would advise that you get there early as the line will be long no doubt. Another thing Nashville does is make people wait outside to draw attention then when you get in the club no one is inside except the dj and bartenders lol! However, don't let this deter you. This party will be packed no doubt cuz nephew Tommy is fine and those that did not or could not afford to support Steve will be more than eager to get a glimpse of that tall drank of water that is Tommy. Especially the big girls they, we, will be out in full force. :-)

TSU Basketball Game against UT Martin

TSU - Gentry Center, 3500 John A. Merritt Boulevard Nashville, TN 37209
Phone: (615)963-2590 Email Website
Women 5:30 p.m.
Men 7:30 p.m.

Lady Tigers Record:
Overall 12-10
OVC 8-3
The women are currently 12-10 winning 8 of the 11 OVC games including one against UT Martin in their last meeting on January 10th. I am a TSU alum and very proud of my school at times. I enjoy attending the games and cheering for my TSU TIGERS. The ladies are doing very well. If you are unable to make the comedy show please go out and support our Lady Tigers. DOWN WITH THE SKYHAWKS! OFF WITH THEIR HEADS LOL!

Tigers Record:

Overall 6-16

OVC 4-8

Hmmm. No wonder coach Cy was fired Feb 6, 2009. After a six year loosing record I would say it's about darn time. Sorry coach. It is what it is. In the interim coach Cy's understudy Mark Pittman will hold it down. Hopefully he's been taking notes on what not to do.

Chocolate Dreams

Just added new bedding and thought it looked nice so decided to post :-)

Purchased it from Linens n' things during their going out of business sale. Wasn't really sure if it was a summer set or fall or winter. It's not really light or heavy. Kinda in between. The cover is actually a duvet. I don't have a comforter or down that I want to put it so figured I'd just leave it for the moment. I like the color combination brown, tan and light blue or robin egg blue I guess it's called. I do need a little something extra to spice it up like a throw either blue or some other color. Also there are no pics on the wall. I haven't really found anything I like yet. Still looking. So, what do you think?

So after I talked about it I went back and added my throw from the living room. Yep, the living room is brown and red. Now what do you think? I'm still missing something.

Thoughts to remember when faced with trouble

• The devil cannot devour you at his will
• Attacks have limits
• You’re a new creature not governed by your past
• Power of darkness is broken over my life
• Every satanic attack is illegal and can be stopped
• I can control my thought life by controlling my fears
• Devil only has place if you give it to him
• Do not allow the devil to get you out of character
• No weapon formed by satan shall prosper
• My protection is in my confession
• Confessions are like alarm systems. You must activate the alarm to make it work.

How to deal with demons/spirits/warfare
Laying on of hands - Luke 4:40-41; 13:11-13
Special miracles of God – Acts 19
Prayer and fasting – Mark 9:29
Do not dilute the spirit of fasting. Fasting is Food! Put our body into subjection. Allow God to sustain you.
By the word of God – Matthew 8:16
Prophetic anointing of music – Isaiah 16:14-23
Praise brings deliverance – Psalm 32:7

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