Tell em why you mad!

I'm so not in a good mood today and I have no one to talk to. everyone is so anal and look at me as the bad guy and over reactor.

I read a fb post this morning from a clinical therapist that emotional intelligence is the ability to use wisdom and react not out of emotion but out of sincere thought, facts, and discernment or some ish like that, rationalizing and separating the facts from what you feel at that moment. I have also been reading notes on linkedin from a social work therapist who specializes in anger management. he posted a question about the difference between emotional intelligence and the ability to effectively build and maintain positive relationships.

I use to react a lot out of emotion before I started college. everything was a personal attack and pissed me off. As I went through my college years I have grew considerably and am working even harder to grow in this area. I consider myself a more calm cool and collected individual. I consider the other person's viewpoint before I voice my concerns. Most of the time I don't say anything as it would only cause an uproar, feelings to be hurt, and chaos due to misunderstanding and lack of acceptance and respect for me on their part. In my considering both sides of the situation and trying to compromise and understand I don't feel anyone else listens with an open mind and try to understand things from my perspective. I"m definitely not saying I"m right about everything but at least give me a chance before passing judgement and running with preconceived notions.

With all that said, this ish has nothing to do with y I'm totally pissed off at this moment. LOL I'm highly p.o.'d because I am stupid broke. My financial management expertise is less than that of a kindergartner or homeless person rationing out his last 3 pennies. On top of that what really got under my skin this morning was a work email from another agency.

Part of my job is to filter outside request. In this latest request, the person asked for 2 years of data similar to what I gave her 2 years ago. Cool, no problem. I did it, although tedious and mundane, I put on hold what I was doing and completed the assignment. Once submitted I did not receive a thank you, I got it, blah blah or anything until today, 2 weeks later. And guess what she asked for, additional data. And she had the nerve to say that I gave her this "additional" information 2 years ago. This however is a lie! I did not give her that information 2 years ago. I did explain to her that what she was asking for was obtainable, but would not be submitted for another 4 weeks as I was in overload with my own assignments specific to my department. No, those were not my exact words, but it is pretty close. I smooth went off as professional and restrained as possible. LOL

And the part I'm pissed off about is not that she asked for additional data but that I spent my time trying to get something done for her putting my work on the back burner and she responds 2 weeks later. If it wasn't that important I would not have wasted my time. That's what has me flustered.

Needless to say this is how my day started and has since continued to snowball and no one is in their right mind enough for me to vent. Why? Because I'm the bad guy...the over-reactor. However when they react in a similar manner to similar situations its okay, it's allowed, its understood. This concept not just professionally but socially continues to irk me to the fullest extent of befuddlement. I have never and will never understand how my emotional intelligence is graded on a completely different scale.

And another thing, why in the hail don't people respond to email? If you receive an email needing a response why would you not respond? Is it because you don't want to get caught up in some bullish? Why would you have something to say that you can't back up or don't feel comfortable repeating? Because you fear retaliation or I spy-ism why does that stop you from saying hey, I received your email, I'll talk with you later about it or some ish like that. SAY SOMETHING! That's all I ask. It's not that hard. If you needed something you'd expect me to respond so why wouldn't you show me the same respect? Just Dumb! Another fact of life I do not understand. Don't respond just when you need something but let the other person know you heard them or something. Geesh!

THE END!