A certain man planted a rose and watered it faithfully and before it blossemed, he examined it. He saw the bud that would woon blossom, but noticed thorns upon the stem and th though, "how can any beautiful flower come from a plant burdened with so many sharp thorns? Saddened by this thought, he negleted to water the rose, and just before it was ready to bloom...it died.
So it is with many peopole. Within every soul there is a rose. Thi god-like qualitities planted in us at birth, grow amid the thorns of our faults. Many of us look at ourselves and see only the thorns, the defects. We despair, thinking that nothing good can possibly come from us. We neglect to water the good within us, and evntually it dies. We never realize our potential. Some people do not see the rose within themselves; someone else must show it to them. ONe of the greatest gifts a person can possess is to be able to reach past the thorns of another, and find the rose within them.
This is one of the characteristics of love...to look at a person, know their true faults and accepting that person into your life...all the while recognizing the nobility in their soul. Help others to realize they can overcome their faults. If we show them the "rose" within themselves, they wil conquer their throns. Only then will they blossom many times over.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Gaining Direction for your Life
So, my bishop got married May 23 2009. I am so happy for him and the new 1st lady. A man as wonderful as him deserves happiness and companionship.
Of course that means our bishop had to consecrate the marriage! And I know he was more than ready for that LOL! Needless to say, we had a substitute for worship service Sunday May 24th and rightfully so.
Pastor Charles Jenkins from Fellowship Missionary Baptist Church sacrificed leaving his church service to take care of his friend Bishop Walker's sheep. And I am so glad he did because he delivered and AWESOME sermon.
"Gaining Direction for your life." Scripture base, Habakkuk 2:2 talks about how Habakkuk the faithful God loving man pursued his ambitions placed on him by God. No matter what the circumstances he pressed on in the name of Jesus.
Jeremiah 29:11 Pastor Jenkins reminded us that God has something for everyone. There's no need to worry about what other people have going on. As long as you follow the word of God you will receive your just reward.
If you want to change what you are receiving in your life then change the ppl you take your issues to. They have no idea what is in store for you. Only God knows that. So why bother communicating with those outside the realm when there answers are with God. Matthew 7:7 Prayer brings forth the answers and directions you need.
Be not weary for God has the answers and will give you what you need. You only have to continue talking to him, listening, and follow his lead.
Examples of God giving directions: Gen 12:1, Ex 3:14, Judges 6:14, and Joshua 4:15.
When God gives you a vision, it is for an appointed time. There is no time to waste when God gives you direction you must act and not procrastinate. As I reflect on this segment I think I may have missed many an opportunity to do what it is God has for me. I once received vision to start an after school enrichment program in my hometown and extend it to small cities across the U.S. I have yet to fulfill that vision because there is no way I want to return home to my small town full of depression, defeat, and stagnation. I seem to no longer have that vision as I am just trying to maintain where I am and not loose footing.
All things happen for a reason. I believe God has put something great in the cards for me. The direction I'm headed in now seems to be a pretty good foundation builder for the next steps in my progress. I'm not giving up and I must try harder to make that vision come true whether it is the same as originally viewed of if there are adaptations.
Patience is the ability to wait on God and follow his lead when it seems there is no way out of what your in. In order to fulfill the vision God has set for us, we have to Pray about it and ask for guidance. God will provide direction for that vision. Once we receive that vision we have to write it down and make it plain so that we wont forget it and work towards carrying it out.
God will only give you visions that are progressive and build on one another. In this progression others may not understand whats going on. Your job is to continue in the word, work the vision, and be patient waiting on the results.
God knows what he's doing. Trust Him.
Of course that means our bishop had to consecrate the marriage! And I know he was more than ready for that LOL! Needless to say, we had a substitute for worship service Sunday May 24th and rightfully so.
Pastor Charles Jenkins from Fellowship Missionary Baptist Church sacrificed leaving his church service to take care of his friend Bishop Walker's sheep. And I am so glad he did because he delivered and AWESOME sermon.
"Gaining Direction for your life." Scripture base, Habakkuk 2:2 talks about how Habakkuk the faithful God loving man pursued his ambitions placed on him by God. No matter what the circumstances he pressed on in the name of Jesus.
Jeremiah 29:11 Pastor Jenkins reminded us that God has something for everyone. There's no need to worry about what other people have going on. As long as you follow the word of God you will receive your just reward.
If you want to change what you are receiving in your life then change the ppl you take your issues to. They have no idea what is in store for you. Only God knows that. So why bother communicating with those outside the realm when there answers are with God. Matthew 7:7 Prayer brings forth the answers and directions you need.
Be not weary for God has the answers and will give you what you need. You only have to continue talking to him, listening, and follow his lead.
Examples of God giving directions: Gen 12:1, Ex 3:14, Judges 6:14, and Joshua 4:15.
When God gives you a vision, it is for an appointed time. There is no time to waste when God gives you direction you must act and not procrastinate. As I reflect on this segment I think I may have missed many an opportunity to do what it is God has for me. I once received vision to start an after school enrichment program in my hometown and extend it to small cities across the U.S. I have yet to fulfill that vision because there is no way I want to return home to my small town full of depression, defeat, and stagnation. I seem to no longer have that vision as I am just trying to maintain where I am and not loose footing.
All things happen for a reason. I believe God has put something great in the cards for me. The direction I'm headed in now seems to be a pretty good foundation builder for the next steps in my progress. I'm not giving up and I must try harder to make that vision come true whether it is the same as originally viewed of if there are adaptations.
Patience is the ability to wait on God and follow his lead when it seems there is no way out of what your in. In order to fulfill the vision God has set for us, we have to Pray about it and ask for guidance. God will provide direction for that vision. Once we receive that vision we have to write it down and make it plain so that we wont forget it and work towards carrying it out.
God will only give you visions that are progressive and build on one another. In this progression others may not understand whats going on. Your job is to continue in the word, work the vision, and be patient waiting on the results.
God knows what he's doing. Trust Him.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
NO THANK YOU!
So he's probably calling because he's horny. It's been about a month so his hormones are growing weak. It's too late. I'm not giving him another chance. I'm not responding to text messages or phone calls. It's always the same song and no revelation. I miss him and I love him and I'm in-love with him, but i'm not going to continue to subject myself to someone who does not feel the same way about me.
What was I thinking dating a guy who thinks it's okay to have babies all throughout Tennessee. He's not selective in who he has a baby with and thinks it's no big deal to have a different mother for every child. Why should I feel special about the possibility of having his child. It wouldn't mean anything to him except another child support payment which he seems to not mind at all.
I'm looking forward to attracting a good man that wants to truly be with me, get to know me, and grow with me. Yes it's all about me and I have no shame about it. I am not ashamed about what I want and don't want. I believe I deserve to be admired and truly loved so if I can't get that then I'm not wasting my time. I'm a very loving individual and I give 100% of myself to building a relationship why shouldn't I expect the same thing in return?
What was I thinking dating a guy who thinks it's okay to have babies all throughout Tennessee. He's not selective in who he has a baby with and thinks it's no big deal to have a different mother for every child. Why should I feel special about the possibility of having his child. It wouldn't mean anything to him except another child support payment which he seems to not mind at all.
I'm looking forward to attracting a good man that wants to truly be with me, get to know me, and grow with me. Yes it's all about me and I have no shame about it. I am not ashamed about what I want and don't want. I believe I deserve to be admired and truly loved so if I can't get that then I'm not wasting my time. I'm a very loving individual and I give 100% of myself to building a relationship why shouldn't I expect the same thing in return?
Thursday, May 7, 2009
FYI: Did you know
A native west Tennessean heads America's green jobs initiative under President Obama. His name is Van Jones and he hails from Jackson, Tennessee :-)
He was named in Time Magazines top 100 most influential people in 2008 and again in 2009!
Google him baby! This man is AWESOME. He has so many accomplishments including, NY Times best selling author, civil rights activist, attorney, social entrepreneur, and environmentalist.
DESPERATION
Desperation moves at the sound of its own drum humming along to a tune all it's very own. Making melodies symphonic in beats and harmonious in rhythm. there's no ending nor beginning only the truth of wanting by many. Many nights of loneliness many nights of caring and desiring no stopping til they've reached the mood.
I'm sick, I'm tired, I'm drained, I'm in love, in like, in need, indeed. Counting my blessing til I'm home again making love is a lesson no need to seek and hide. Contemplating suicide but wait before you push me aside, I'm waiting wanting no need for this homicide.
Peace be still my heart. Strings of faith declared this Earth. Move away don't look back. What you're reaching for is yet intact. Be still my broken arrow look away my sadden heart. Break down these walls of frustration carry on my broken heart. Now is not the time for grief or insanity be who you are and withstand this distant epiphany.
End this song now before it gives birth draw out the soreness of such a raw Earth. Create within you that which you are. Be more to yourself than that which you think you are.
Now is the time to grow up and never cower being that disdain will only make you sour.
Protect yourself, Respect yourself, it is my greatest plea. Suffer all alone but never comfort me. Dissatisfaction , a cowards way of me making life a gamble important to none but thee.
This is the End for you to come aboard make life your destiny live as though you should. Make everyday your last and live for only the good.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
LOVE
Love seems to fail us at all the wrong times. It's a rainy 2 weeks in Nashville, I'm recovering from a cold/flu and listening to a new cd. All these elements make for many moments of reflection. The cd is "Travel and Light." The artist is Jaafar. The songs are sweet, melodic, and comforting. They also make me think about being in-love, in-like, and in-wonder.
Working from 9-5, volunteering from 5-9, and running on empty promises weighs in on the attributes of peace, love, and harmony. The thing most constant in change is the evidence of things staying the same coming full circle and running its course. Change brings forced revelation yet it develops a skip pattern yet to be fully developed in sequential altitudes capable of understanding.
Love is one of those constant changes that remains the same. Love cherishes, grows, and crushes. It's all the same day in day out yet different. Running against love tires the soul and builds walls thicker than iron. Sometimes its okay to stop and breath and let it catch up with you. Love hurts, heals, crushes, and relieves the mind of pain known and unknown.
Giving love a try...I don't know. Failed attempts waxes the determinative attributes once so easily obtained.
Writing
Writing is good for the soul. It helps eliminate toxins on the brain, soul, and helps clarify emotions. Happy people express themselves to others, themselves, and the outer universe in general. Keeping it all in suffocates creativity and pollutes the heart. I'm not one to fully express myself whether happy, sad, confused, or mad. This has caused an outward appearance of defeat, dissatisfaction, and helplessness.
No one knows your thoughts, desires, hopes, dreams, intelligence, or true identity. You become defined by your facial expressions or lack thereof. Spinning in circles going no where. Peace isn't my sanctity because I'm unexpressive. There needs to be a change. A change in the way I express myself, the way I do not express myself.
My friend creates art with pen, another makes jewelry, another preaches the word, another verbally and joyfully engages in random conversations. These are simple but doable forms of communication and letting someone know where you stand, how you feel, and who you are in and out.
Nonchalance carries the attitude of "I don't care", "I'm far removed", or it could also mean "I really don't know so I'd rather not comment." Does this mean you have no opinion, your disinteresting, disinterested, or ignorant? Not voicing your opinion leads others to draw their own conclusions. Most times these conclusions lean more on the negative side than not.
Stuck up, boring, quiet, unknowledgeable, are a few adjectives used to describe less verbally expressive interactive nonchalant low-opinionated persons such as myself. It's not that I don't know or have an opinion. Most of the time it is because I'm disinterested and at others it could be that what I have to say would not be the status quo and someone's feelings would be hurt. Opinions are based on what that person knows and knowing what I know sometimes wages war against how the majority views the situation.
Taking ideas from what someone tells you, incorporating them with what you know, using my sense of discernment, and scanning the past, present, and future helps create my response. There are times when what I say needs further explanation but by then persons receiving the response have taken comments to another level in the wrong direction making me out to be the mean one. When in fact things aren't always what they seem. Listening and further inquiry as to how the answer was derived would reveal that all details have been taken into consideration, tested, and sequenced to produce minimal yet confusing response.
So at times instead of answering and having to go in depth explaining the derivative of my response I'd rather keep my answer to myself and let the masses draw conclusions.
Is this helpful to my character...not really. However, no one ask unless they want the truth. It is my belief that I bring the realness to any situation. I say what one is thinking but has not been said and this is the value added opinion that may come across as harsh but in reality speaks volumes.
Choose words wisely. Closed mouths don't get fed. Say what you mean and mean what you say. Speak it and it shall be. Those that walk in the counsel of the Godly shall inherit the earth.
Today's Journey
Today's journey will be one of peace, solitude, harmony, and self-reflection. I'm tired, sleepy, and bored. Not bored in the sense that I don't have anything to do, but in the sense that I need a vacation. A long week maybe 2 week vacation. Whether alone or with someone special, I need time away.
Growing up we never took vacations. I knew nothing about ppl taking yearly vacations. I didn't know that was something ppl did on a regular. My mom and grandmother never went anywhere further than work and church. My dad and his family went places sometimes, but I didn't really know it was a regular routine that ppl planned every summer.
Now that I'm independent and running my own household, paying bills, and working non-stop, I know better. Vacations should be a job requirement to keep energy going. Vacation planning should be part of the benefit package. I think everyone would be much happier, more productive, and call out sick less. Children would be smarter in school and get into less trouble. Husbands would be happier, wives would fill more appreciated and fulfilled. The world would be a much calmer place.
Last year I had to settle for rainy Tampa, Florida as my birthday get-away. My wish is to go on a cruise to the islands or any other land far away. My next birthday will definitely require a passport and no less than $2,000. China, Beijing, Singapore, Netherlands, New Zealand, Amsterdam, Prague, Japan, anywhere overseas and away from the states. I need to explore, grow, mature, get some culture. I need an extreme adventure.
I'm 33 and I only have 7 years to fulfill my goal of traveling the world before I'm 40. First, I need to get a passport. Second I need to create a plan for this travel. It would be very nice to have a travel companion, but with the friends I have now I'd be lucky to get out of the south. Funds are tight, we are in a recession, and everyone is pretty much getting situated in their career including myself. It takes time, discipline, and perseverance to plan a trip of the magnitude I'm trying to reach. It also takes money. There in lays my downfall. HA!
I could get a job that has me traveling every 2 weeks. Many people that travel say they are tired of traveling and those that do not travel wish they could. No one's ever totally satisfied with their situation. In my opinion, I see that as a good thing. If we are satisfied then we cease to grow. Well, I am one who needs a change of scenery every 2 years. Hence the reason I'm assuming I have not held the same job longer than 2 years. I'm currently setting a new record working on year 3. Stability is an honorable concept. Keeping the interest alive is the challenge.
For now, I strive to put into action my plan for peace, harmony, and solitude. I have to make this work to my advantage. I have to find a balance between working, growing, and enjoying every minute of the day. Something has to give.
Monday, May 4, 2009
King James MVP 2009
KING JAMES MVP 2009
So it was mostly between James and Kobe but Mr James came out on top which I'm glad. I think he definitely deserved. My sweety Wade came in a close 2nd. He does so much on his own. Maybe next yr boobie!
Dwight Howard
Kobe Bryant
Love of My life Mr. D Wade!
So it was mostly between James and Kobe but Mr James came out on top which I'm glad. I think he definitely deserved. My sweety Wade came in a close 2nd. He does so much on his own. Maybe next yr boobie!
Dwight Howard
Kobe Bryant
Love of My life Mr. D Wade!Kanye has his own Nike's
These are called AIR YEEZY'S can you believe it. Kids are fanatic over these shoes. I nabbed this pic from Ye's blog site This is crazy. I'm really scanning through all the pics trying to figure out if there are more to come but no, this is it! Wow! And they only come in grey or black. Hell that's enough. Are kids really this crazy over Ye. How blah are these shoes really? Sneaker fanatics all around I guess are loosing sleep waiting on these shoes. Really! I think in the video post someone even gave up their job so he could wait in line for Yeezy's lol!
Okay, so as I'm further strolling I learn that the shoes glow in the dark! Yes kids, they glow in the dark.
with shirts to match and ppl are painting the swoosh with glow paint and adding glow in the dark shoe strings. Man. This gotta be some NY stuff!CRIMINALS BEWARE! LOL! Do Not wear these on your next "outing"! I am so tripping. However, I am NOT AT ALL MAD at Kanye! Get your money! Seriously!
Wish I could come up with some off the meter money maker.
Okay, so I'm late, these joints came out in April. still mindboggling to me at the seriousness of this fashion ____.
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