Two Can Play At That Game

Have you ever dated someone and thought, “Now why the heck am I with him?”  I’ve done this a million times and still haven’t figured out why I do what I do. Why do I allow myself to date these guys I’m really really not even interested in?  Is it for companionship because I have no friends to hang out with? Yes.  Is it for financial gain so I don’t have to pay for every single thing I want myself? Yes. LOL Well there you have it.  You’re a selfish prick LOL!  And that shit aint even funny. 

There’s a blues song out that says, “You’re no good. You’re no good. You’re no good.”  I think this should be my anthem.  Not really because I’m not good but because I’m so not feeling whatever he talking about so I just move on to the next one. Twenty plus years later I should not still be singing this same ol tune but I am. Good-bye dead weight. Hello peace and happiness…and loneliness. 

NO THANK YOU!

So he's probably calling because he's horny. It's been about a month so his hormones are growing weak. It's too late. I'm not giving him another chance. I'm not responding to text messages or phone calls. It's always the same song and no revelation. I miss him and I love him and I'm in-love with him, but i'm not going to continue to subject myself to someone who does not feel the same way about me.

What was I thinking dating a guy who thinks it's okay to have babies all throughout Tennessee. He's not selective in who he has a baby with and thinks it's no big deal to have a different mother for every child. Why should I feel special about the possibility of having his child. It wouldn't mean anything to him except another child support payment which he seems to not mind at all.

I'm looking forward to attracting a good man that wants to truly be with me, get to know me, and grow with me. Yes it's all about me and I have no shame about it. I am not ashamed about what I want and don't want. I believe I deserve to be admired and truly loved so if I can't get that then I'm not wasting my time. I'm a very loving individual and I give 100% of myself to building a relationship why shouldn't I expect the same thing in return?

Family Night

Tonight is Family Night at my church. We have 2 locations and 4 church services. Family Night is where all locations and services come together to fellowship, take communion, baby dedications and we have baptisms. I am my only family here so it's not as heartfelt warming to me but I go anyway because its part of my worship experience.

This month's family night service has an added special touch because March is Singles Month. The Singles Ministry is in charge of creating events and networking opportunites for the singles in the church. This sunday singles are asked to wear purple and black to family night service and a socail networking meeting will be held after service. This should be interested.

This is the 1st time they have tried something like this and I am really intrigued by the creativeness of this years singles ministry.