I TOLD YOU SO

Had a very blessed week. Even met someone new. Those positive words of self-encouragement actually work. I even woke up one morning feeling so loved and embraced by God. I woke up with a smile on my face feeling loved and loving my daddy!. It's like He kissed me with his sunshine and hugged me 1st thing in the A.M. I woke out of my peaceful restful sleep smiling saying My Daddy Loves Me! WOW! It was a miraculous feeling of euphoria. I pray for that type of awakening every morning.

I've been reading my word more and not just on Sunday when the pastor says turn to chapter xyz. I've been working hard to make it to Sunday School, which has been a tremendous blessing. I'm trying my hardest to smile more even when I think no one's looking, especially when I think no one is looking.

Today is going to be another awesome day not just because it's bright and sunny but because I have a full schedule and I intend on enjoying every minute of it.

Good Morning Love

Today is going to be an awesome day. How do I know? Because I say so. Usually whenever I start my day on a positive spoken word it happens. So, we are looking forward to today minus a case of the "Mondays"!

I have not been to work in 2 weeks and have a lot of catch up work to do. Not that I missed work, but I am glad to be going back to work to finish up my assignments. I pray I'm doing my best work and it is satisfactory to my unit supervisor and the agency director. Working for the state is kind of flexible and it's hard to tell if you are really doing a good job or not and if your work is appreciated.

I have no idea why, but I'm glad Holly is back on my preferred news station Nashville Channel 4. The other lady did a great job but I was use to Holly and like her.

I have nixed the half marathon ambitions. After the 5 mile group run and the announcement that training was moving on to speed prep I realized that I was not ready and was not going to be ready to run 13 miles in less than 2 hours. There's a half in Murfreesboro in October. Maybe I'll have better luck training for that and then I'll be ready next April. *fingers crossed*

Have an awesome day! Do your blessed. Tell yourself "today is going to be a great day" and I guarantee it will. :-)

Gaining Direction for your Life

So, my bishop got married May 23 2009. I am so happy for him and the new 1st lady. A man as wonderful as him deserves happiness and companionship.



Of course that means our bishop had to consecrate the marriage! And I know he was more than ready for that LOL! Needless to say, we had a substitute for worship service Sunday May 24th and rightfully so.



Pastor Charles Jenkins from Fellowship Missionary Baptist Church sacrificed leaving his church service to take care of his friend Bishop Walker's sheep. And I am so glad he did because he delivered and AWESOME sermon.



"Gaining Direction for your life." Scripture base, Habakkuk 2:2 talks about how Habakkuk the faithful God loving man pursued his ambitions placed on him by God. No matter what the circumstances he pressed on in the name of Jesus.



Jeremiah 29:11 Pastor Jenkins reminded us that God has something for everyone. There's no need to worry about what other people have going on. As long as you follow the word of God you will receive your just reward.



If you want to change what you are receiving in your life then change the ppl you take your issues to. They have no idea what is in store for you. Only God knows that. So why bother communicating with those outside the realm when there answers are with God. Matthew 7:7 Prayer brings forth the answers and directions you need.



Be not weary for God has the answers and will give you what you need. You only have to continue talking to him, listening, and follow his lead.



Examples of God giving directions: Gen 12:1, Ex 3:14, Judges 6:14, and Joshua 4:15.



When God gives you a vision, it is for an appointed time. There is no time to waste when God gives you direction you must act and not procrastinate. As I reflect on this segment I think I may have missed many an opportunity to do what it is God has for me. I once received vision to start an after school enrichment program in my hometown and extend it to small cities across the U.S. I have yet to fulfill that vision because there is no way I want to return home to my small town full of depression, defeat, and stagnation. I seem to no longer have that vision as I am just trying to maintain where I am and not loose footing.



All things happen for a reason. I believe God has put something great in the cards for me. The direction I'm headed in now seems to be a pretty good foundation builder for the next steps in my progress. I'm not giving up and I must try harder to make that vision come true whether it is the same as originally viewed of if there are adaptations.



Patience is the ability to wait on God and follow his lead when it seems there is no way out of what your in. In order to fulfill the vision God has set for us, we have to Pray about it and ask for guidance. God will provide direction for that vision. Once we receive that vision we have to write it down and make it plain so that we wont forget it and work towards carrying it out.



God will only give you visions that are progressive and build on one another. In this progression others may not understand whats going on. Your job is to continue in the word, work the vision, and be patient waiting on the results.



God knows what he's doing. Trust Him.

Lovin is Hard

So, I'm chillin at the house all day long watching episode after episode of "The Game". It's hypnotic. I truly did not mean to waste my entire free day plopped down in the lazy boy 4 hours a day. If I can remember when I started watching the 1st show. And there were no commercials from one show to the next so there was no time to get distracted and move on to something else. I was hooked literally all day long from A.M. to 6pm when 106 & park came on. Then of course it was easy to let go. I was so into it because I have not seen the game in years so I am so lost on all the episodes. The last show I saw was when Kelly moved out and divorced Jason. I have no idea how that all ended or what day the regular shows come on.
I'm hoping BET doesn't mess up the chemistry.
So, the reason why I'm blogging is because one of the episodes was about Tasha and her breaking up with Coach Kenny. It was all about her attitude and "black girl sass". She mentioned that 47% of African American women do not get married after 30. That was a sad statistic and I'm not really feeling that it has anything to do with "black girl sass". However it has me thinking more about the idea of getting married.

For the longest I haven't really felt the urge to get married or even have a boyfriend. Nothing more than a "hang out" guy with perks. I did say perks not benefits. I think I've had enough of the sex routine. I can have sex any given day of the week. That's a lost cause for me. Not a really big "need" per se. I don't know if I'm really ready for a full blooded relationship. Every relationship I'm in I seem to loose myself and stop focusing on what it is I need to do. No on can get ahead at that rate. I'll always be needy and whiny because I think I'm not getting enough attention. The problem is I should give myself that attention and stop relying on someone else to fill that void. So what I've never been close with my parents or siblings. That shouldn't be the end of to the possibilities of me having a decent worthwhile healthy relationship with someone of the opposite sex.

Love is hard and I seem to keep fighting it and running away from the possibility of meeting Mr. Right. I'm so sure I can stop all hurt from coming my way if I put brick wall between me and the rest of the universe. So what if that only pushes people away. At least then I want be hurt and everyone will be a okay.

Hmmm, that sounds like a pretty lonely place to be for the rest of my life. Yeah, but I'm semi-cool for right now. I'm not really feeling a relationship. It's always the wrong guys that approach me instead of someone I was really interested in and desired. How do I attract and keep those guys? That's where the dilemma lies.

So what would I be interested in? Let's imagine my dream guy. At least 5'7", of course cute. No lighter than me, college graduate at the least, out going. I have to have outgoing because I'm not so he has to be the life of the party. Humor is a must. Loving, gentle, kind, considerate. All the things listed in the bible that describes what true love is and is not. Confident but not cocky, nice dresser but not obsessed, giving, nurturing but not a push over. I don't want him being a yes man and volunteering for everything and everybody. I need him to myself 95% of the time :-) Smart, peaceful, romantic. Yes, romantic. I have never listed that before in my things I want in a mind. After dating my ex and a few other guys in the past, I have come to realize that's what was missing, among other things but especially the romance.

Maybe I haven't been the romancing type. Guys romance the ones that really want to spend time with and care about. humph.

There are tons of other things I could ask for and desire but this blog is pretty long enough so I guess I'll end it there. It was kinda nice and warm to think about what I want in a guy. Maybe I'll dream about it tonight and it will come true.

Marriage...DONT DO IT GIRL! unless he's heaven sent

Words from Pastor Jamal Harrison-Bryant:

I often warn women who are contemplating marriage to marry someone who can take care of them. When a woman marries, it ought to be to someone who is capable of taking her to the next level. If she comes from poverty, there is no reason for her to get married and still be impoverished. The role of the man is to take her to another place.

When she gets married, she ought to dress better, drive better, live better, and eat better, not constantly be in a struggle over where her next meal is coming from. My grandmother used to say, 'I can do bad all by myself.

For a woman desiring a mate, the objective, of course, would be to find a Christian man, who's settled, has goals, accomplishments and a job. But a goal-oriented and focused man can't just be approached any kind of way.

So the woman who seeks this type of stability must make sure that he stands out above the crowd:

• Make sure your relationship with the Lord is strong and growing.
• Make sure that you are presentable. Working from the inside out, your presentation should be representative of both who you are and whom you seek. Appearance is a reflection of how you see yourself.
• Have the ability to hold an intelligent conversation.
• And most importantly, allow the Holy Ghost to take control. You don't need to go after him. He's going to come after you, because after he sees and smells you and knows that you're in his presence, he's going to want to know who you are!

I know there's somebody reading this who has been chasing after the 'man of your dreams,' but God says, 'Just sit still and allow patience to have her perfect work through Me. '

Furthermore, it's never a good idea to be too forward and too aggressive. Attempting to win a man's affection by jumping into bed with him will only backfire and cause him to lose interest in ever developing a lasting relationship. It causes him to lose respect for you and question your character.

However, if he sees that you are dressed with quality, that you smell like you are somebody, that you look like you're doing fine without him, then that will attract the right attention from him. He'll have no choice but to give you his attention. Stop looking so needy, climbing into bed, trying in vain to capture a man's heart.God woke me up in the middle of the night and said, 'The same thing that Naomi told Ruth to do is the same thing that I want them to do for me.'

God is so sick of saints coming to Him trying to get a quickie and never romancing Him for Who he is - going to church screaming, shouting and hollering, but hadn't been intimate with God all week long! Stop trying to treat God like a sugar daddy and start romancing Him with worship and praise: 'I'm yours Lord...everything I've got...everything I'm not!'

The God we serve, which is the God of love, demands and requires of us foreplay before He gives us what we need. In the book of Ruth, the mother-in-law tells Ruth, 'You have to wash.' John 15:3 reminds us, Now ye are clean through the word which I have spoken unto you. When you sit in the Gospel of Jesus Christ, you are taking a shower. When you hear the unadulterated Word of God, then the dirt and grime that you've accumulated all week long begins to wash off of you.

Ask God to 'create in you a clean heart and renew a right spirit.' Stand in the word. Then wait upon the Lord to renew your strength. Pass this on to those who have found or are seeking Mr. Right. This message is not directed at the receiver, it is directed to women I know that touch other young women that can benefit from this information. We are to be Naomi's of the world today. Our young women need to be informed of how to catch and keep a man that will respect .

" If he can't meet you where you are....leave him where he's at "

'Every Saint Has a Past, Every Sinner Has A Future'

BE REAL! HONESTY IS THE BEST POLICY

DAMN THOSE NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS

Good Morning Good People! Lets make today a good day! I have to tell myself this everyday because I get so bored with my daily routine in spite of the efforts I make to change it. My bishop's motto for the New Year state: "IT'S DELIVERY TIME IN 2009"! He keeps coming with them don't he :-) Delivery of course is an acronym but since I didnt attend watch night service I can't honestly tell you what it stands for lol! I do know that some of the message is a repeat from last year. So we have yet another time to get it right. Don't waste it because you never know when this time might be your last time. God keeps waking us up to give us another chance to get it right. Try not to disappoint him or yourself. Live your best life is easier said than done, but I believe it is doable no doubt! Make habits not resolutions. I am officially boycotting that whole resolution thing! BAH HUMBUG to false expectations! Get a grip! Do you for you for life not just for a moment of inspiration. Set realistic goals not just for the new year, but every single day. It takes a constant check and balance to become who you want to be for yourself and others. If you have a strong desire to make changes make them a little at a time. Just like we cancel debt in small increments so should your quest of something new. Never forget to celebrate the small victories. It takes small victories to make it big. Nothing is overnight. If you wake up in the morning that is the day for you to do something different, something right, something spectacular, something habitual. Life is destined to end no matter what. The only opportunity you have to create something spectacular is from dob to expiration. Make it worth something. Believe it or not, Souljah boy actually has the best motto for life...WALK IT OUT. Don't play, do and be for real about it. Be adament. Be nerve racking to the point you can't stand yourself if you don't do it. :-)
Peace, love, blessings, and increased income lol!